[vc_row][vc_column][vc_custom_heading text=”STORY OF A GAMBLER (CHAPTER 12: TRUTH)” font_container=”tag:h1|text_align:left” use_theme_fonts=”yes”][vc_column_text]After about a month of going to the Gambler Anonymous meetings I called up Annie and I told her that I was ready to go to couples therapy with her but first I had to tell her something very important. She agreed to let me come over for dinner the next night so we could talk. Andrew was staying over at his friends for the evening, so it was the perfect opportunity to talk about our relationship.
The next day I arrived at the house around 6 PM, she told me to come in. Being there was so strange to me, I felt like a stranger in my own home. I looked at her and I did everything in my power to not break down in front of her. I felt like I had disappointed her so much and I would do everything I could to win her back but before I could do that I had to get better, I had to fix me before fixing us. I asked her to sit down and I told her that I needed to be honest with her because I had been keeping something from her for years and she needed to know the truth.
She looked terrified, I think she thought I was going to tell her that I had been cheating on her for years with other women. The words just flowed out of my mouth, I said; “Annie, I never cheated on you not once with another woman.” She didn’t believe me, and at that point that’s when tears started forming in my eyes and I told her everything. All of the late nights, the anxiety, the money problems, and the mood swings, they were all because I was addicted to gambling. I told her that I had a disease and I was getting help finally. I was expecting her to start yelling at me or telling me to get out, to my surprise she started crying and reached over and hugged me. She said she was so sorry, for not knowing about my problem and that she felt terrible for not being there for me. She also had so many questions, and ones that I just wasn’t ready to answer. I told her that as much as I wanted to be with her and be back home with her and Andrew that I wasn’t ready, I needed to get healthy again and that had to be my main priority if this would ever work. She was very understanding and told me that she was okay with it and we would work everything out in couple’s therapy.[/vc_column_text][/vc_column][/vc_row][vc_row][vc_column][/vc_column][/vc_row]